When I thought about what my first post would be about, i never imagined that i’d start by dissecting my very own self. But what better way to start than to share my most recent challenge and oh yes! How I failed woefully.
Just four days ago (do the math and you would know exactly what day of the week it was☺). I woke up feeling the way Bruno Mars must have felt when he was inspired to sing “today I dont feel like doing anything, i just want to lie in my bed……”. Only difference was that I sat in bed I didn’t lie. So strong was my determination to do nothing that I didn’t even bother to fellowship with my heavenly father (first mistake). After sometime though I was fed up with all the nothingness and decided to do something, so I picked up my phone and went on some social media platforms (second mistake). There I was on facebook, and what did i see? someone had been putting up funny posts which were showing in my news feed. Note, by funny I don’t mean hilarious I mean the kind of things you’d be embarrassed to view with a child, or at least I would be. My mind seemed to wake up, I was filled with rigtheous fury, this had to be stopped! So I formulated a plan: track down the individual and delete/block her/him. Quickly I set to work, feeling like Sherlock Holmes. All was going well till I thought, “hmm.. let me even see where this link leads” (third mistake). Too soon curosity won over good intentions and I went from that one link to the other and the other and many others. I spent hours (and i mean H-O-U-R-S) Intentionally viewing things that were feeding my lust, grooming my flesh and killing my spirit, all the while justifying my actions with very good points ” after all it isn’t really porn…or is it?”
I ended that day with a clear conviction in my heart, I had desicrated God’s temple (my body) and offended Him. I felt very small, like my image in the mirror was saying to me “is this how low you’ve come?” You see, its true that an idle mind is the devil’s workshop. Mehn, i fell for that one big time. But that wasn’t all, nahhh. The next morning I got a phone call from a caring aunt, she had seen some lewd posts on my Facebook wall posted there by ‘me’ and she was concerned. So here’s what happened, one of the sites I had visited actually stole my password, logged into my Facebook account and began putting up posts on my wall, in my name. I spent good time cleaning up walls, changing my password and deleting the individual from whom it all began. But some damage had already been done and as embarassing as it all was I smiled to myself and thought so this is how the devil leads people into temptation privately and then embarrasses them publicly. Believe me when I say he’s good at what he does, but no I’m not putting the blame on him, I take full responsibility for my actions. Yes, he tempted, but it was my choice to fall.
So what’s the moral lesson of this story? Am just hanging my dirty linen out here because I dont have a cupboard to hide it in? No. These were the lessons I learnt;
1. The devil goes around seeking whom to devour, don’t stay idle or away from God’s presence, when you do you become an easy target.
2. Let he that thinks he stands take heed lest he falls. I’m sure you understand that.
3. Nothing is free with Satan, there’s always a price, and finally……
4.If you do fall (I sincerely hope you dont) quickly set it right with your heavenly father. I have and i’m mighty glad;).
It is said that experience is d best teacher, I say wisdom is better. Dont make your own mistakes before you learn these lessons. Learn them now for FREE.
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